I've had a revelation about my life and my personality. Don't you love when that happens?
I've realized that I need to stop thinking so much. I need to just calm down. I'm not saying I'm uptight but I need to just take a chill pill.
My biggest thing is I could never just spontaneously do anything. I always feel the need to go by the book, have everything be planned out for me. I could never just go with the flow.
I used to like being like that but now, it's just giving me anxiety and kind of putting a damper on everything.
If I'm making plans to go out with my friends, I need to know exactly when and where we are leaving and what time we're going home. I've become very OCD with planning things.
Now, being organized and planning things out isn't always bad. It comes in handy with school work and other aspects of my life but when it comes to having fun, not everything should be planned.
I need to just relax, I need to not worry! That's one of my biggest problems, I am a worrisome. I worry about anything and everything.
Both these things are things I need to work on and I plan on doing so in 2013.
I want to be carefree, I want to do whatever I want without needing to know exactly what is coming next. The unknown scares me and that's why I obsessively plan things. Slowly but surely, I need to stop it, or at least hold the reigns a little bit.
Life does not always need to be planned. Life is too short to plan your fun, you just need to go and have your fun.
I need to stop planning and just go out and live my life, leaving the worrying behind.
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